the careys

the careys
and then there were 7!!

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Summer

Four more days and my beautiful children all finish School for the long summer break and I cannot wait!

I received their School reports today and overall I am thrilled with their progress, meeting their targets and exceeding them in some!  Monica in particular has come on really well this year and her confidence continues to increase.
Both children are apparently 'quiet' yeah right!!  and both are described as being well behaved and a pleasure to teach.
Martha's end of year Nursery report was equally full of praise! and Owen is excelling in all areas, ready to start his GCSE work in September.

So, much to celebrate and much to look forward to this Summer before we all go back to School and Uni.

Jason is trying to say some words, he still babbles and refers to many things as 'ma' but is trying new sounds at the moment, his understanding of everything we say to him is really good though so I have no worries over his communication skills. He certainly lets me know when he wants milk.

Peter is still waiting to have tonsils out but the waiting list is now a year! so in the meantime, he is still having disturbed sleep due to his sleep apnea. His tonsils have also started to swell more often and his throat looks red all the time, coughing doesn't help.
I have him lay next to me at the moment, he doesn't feel well but School have already commented on his 'fair' attendance in his report so am worried about him having more time off! Not really sure what I am supposed to do when he has three different consultants to see twice in a School year at least, plus the usual illnesses. He has had chicken pox this year and chest infections. Next school year he will have to be off for a couple of weeks after his tonsillectomy. I have heard of people having education welfare involved due to a child having a lot of time off and even being fined, despite having a medical condition so the whole situation worries me.

I am still waiting to hear about my interview from last week, I am stalking my emails constantly hoping they will let me know sooner rather later but they will probably keep me waiting.

Thursday, 10 July 2014

London

Yesterday I embarked on a day trip to London for an interview. I applied for the 'Parliamentors' programme a few weeks back and quite unexpectedly was offered an interview!

It is a scheme open to undergraduates in their second year with an opportunity to be mentored by an MP and develop a community project in your area.
Of course this would look great on a CV plus gaining experience and networking opportunities.

The interview went really well. It started with a 20 minute interview one to one where I was asked various questions surrounding my suitability, reasons for applying and my aspirations. I feel I sold myself well and only went off on a passionate tangent once!

Then it was 'question time' where two interns asked the group specific questions. One was about faith schools and whether they adopted British values and were inclusive, whether they should be state funded and the final question asked us whether we felt there was a place for faith within politics.

We were a diverse group, from very different backgrounds and faiths so it was interesting hearing other perspectives. However, I ensured I had my voice heard and seemed to gained the respect of the others, I enjoyed having an intelligent and respectful debate!

Then we were split into two group, given a task, then we had 30 minutes to discuss and arrange a campaign to be delivered in a 5 minute presentation.
Our campaign was to do with the homeless and we had 12 weeks to organise something.

We decided on a name 'off the streets' and detailed our clear aims and exactly how we would approach this in reality. We all became very involved and together we put together a solid presentation with a clear view of how it would work in practice. The presentation went very well and the interviewers seemed to agree.

I was the oldest one there; however, instead of feeling out of place, I felt at ease. I had just as much to offer, if not more, than the others and I enjoyed hearing other political perspectives.

I really hope I am successful and offered a place on the scheme but if not, the interview experience alone was fantastic and I will take the skills I acquired along with me.

Tuesday, 27 May 2014

Holiday.

We have been in Bala since Saturday, in our caravan, enjoying lots of quality family time. It was peeing down with rain when we arrived, which is typical when we have an awning to put up!
So, Mark and Owen got drenched whilst me and the younger ones sorted out lunch in the van :)

We celebrated Owen's 14th Birthday on Sunday with cake, presents and a trip to Porthmadog for ice cream. A huge difference from last year when we woke up to a fire in our awning!

Apart from when we arrived, the weather has been lovely. The children have been playing out non stop, not much difference there compared to home apart from the beautiful surroundings. I love being away from everything commercialised and tourist holiday spots, shame it can't be permanent (maybe one day).

It is national caravan and camping week and the theme this year is nostalgia, so our wardens arranged a traditional 1940s tea party, complete with music and games, including slinky races, splat the rat and hopscotch. All of us had a lovely afternoon, enjoying the simplicity of it all.

Tomorrow we are off to Porthmadog again, this time to have another tattoo done :) and hopefully hit the beach at black rock sands, then maybe a slow drive back through Harlech and Barmouth.

The rest of the week is yet to be decided, so many place to visit and re-visit but we are in the area again for two weeks in august so can do more exploring then.

Thursday, 22 May 2014

Moving forward.....

I have now been on Prozac for almost two weeks and despite a few side effects, I am starting to feel much more like my old self and the fog is lifting!

The support I have had, from family, friends and from people who I haven't spoken to in a while has been quite overwhelming. I didn't blog about how I was feeling to gain sympathy or seek attention, I posted my thoughts as a way to release how I was feeling and the chase the anxieties away. I do think it has helped and is making me face things head on.
As a very wise friend said, I would not have an issue in taking Paracetamol for a headache, so why be against taking medication for my mental health, it is not a sign of weakness.

I feel I have changed a lot over the past few months, it's hard to explain how exactly, but I feel like I am drifting away from what I know and from people I know, like I am drifting out to sea on a boat, looking back at the shore, watching what everyone else is doing, not wanting to go back but worried about what lies ahead. Its a weird kind of loneliness, being around people but not with them. I expect these feelings are a result of the changes in my life over the past twelve months and I feel completely out of sorts with myself!

My family and close friends are my focus at the moment, keeping it simple will hopefully keep my life drama free!

Looking forward to getting away this weekend for a much needed holiday and to celebrate my biggest boy's 14th birthday!

Monday, 12 May 2014

A few days on

Three days into my happy pills and I now have the shakes, dizziness and my heart is skipping more beats than usual!

Trying to revise when I feel like this is a challenge and so is trying to do it around two active small people.

In just over 24 hours it will all be over and I can hopefully just concentrate on getting better, starting with eating!
I haven't eaten properly for weeks. Sometimes I can eat fine and plenty and then at other times the thought of food makes me feel sick so I go without or eat a couple of bites of something.

Mark has removed all medication that is potentially harmful out of my way at my request as feeling that low caused thoughts that I never imagined!

I really hope my GP is right and this is short lived.